New pics

Finally

Yes, I am finally putting a new post!! I apologize profusely to those of you who are avid blog readers. We moved, then all three of us were sick. Things have been a bit crazy. We are settled in our new, bigger place. We all love it. I'll post pics of it soon. There is still stuff we want to do but it's starting to feel like home. Sadie is doing really well. She still has a cough but we have been giving her nebulizer treatments and she is doing okay. One of the girls I work with had a baby on March 5th. She had a little boy. He is sooo cute. It's so funny to look at him so new and beautiful. It's amazing to me that only 8 months ago that was our Sadie. Adam is working hard and doing well in school. Nothing else too terribly exciting going on. Sadie is still in daycare. It's okay, not what we want but...I just keep trying to remember that it's what's meant t be happening right now. anyhow, enjoy the pics


Today's Kabbalah:

Doubt is what brings the feeling of hating oneself and hating other people.Today, remember that through certainty comes love.

Here she is.

More changes...

Sadie is doing much better, she goes back to Dr. Rosi tomorrow for her check up. She seems to feel much better. She is hardly coughing anymore and hr nose is almost dried up! Adam is doing much better too. He still has a cough and headaches, but he says he feels much better. I, of course am sick now. It feels like this cycle is never going to end! Mine seemed to just be allergies/sinus stuff. My eyes are watery, I am congested in my head but now it is going to my chest. Hopefully I'll be feeling better soon because we have a big weekend ahead of us! We are moving! Sounds exciting? Well, we're only moving to another apartment in the same community! We live in a 2 bedroom 1 bathroom. It's been okay for a while (we've been here a year now). But, with Adam in school and Sadie getting bigger we just need more space. We are moving to a 3/2. Adam will have an office, Sadie will have her room and Adam and I will have the Master bedroom to just us now (it has been doubling as Adam's office). I am really excited to be getting a bigger apartment. It's on the third floor (no, we're not crazy). Actually, it'll be nice because we won't have anyone above us and we get vaulted ceilings. I have started packing stuff up. I have done half of Sadie's room, all of our books (about 25 boxes), our DVD's and some of our "nick-nack" decorative stuff. Adam works days tomorrow so if I'm up for it, we will move some of the stuff over there tomorrow evening. He brought me boxes from his job but I have already packed them all full! He'll be bringing more tonight. Moving is such a hassle, but I am so excited and once it's all done it'll be great! Anyhow, enjoy the pics of Sadie. Loves.


Today's Kabbalah:

Many times we want to give conditionally and yet expect others to give us unconditionally. The universe doesn't work that way. When we calculate our sharing, we end up with people who do the same to us.Find one way your sharing is limited. Let go of your expectations and just give. That's how you can attract more unconditional people into your life.

Poor sick Sadie

So, Sadie has had a cough and "cold" for several weeks now. We have been doing everything Dr. Rosi told us to. Lift the head of her bed up, humidifier in her room, nasal saline. Nothing has really seemed to help. On top of it all she has been having trouble with constipation. We finally were able to get into to see Dr. Rosi today. I had to work but Adam closes tonight so he took her. Well...Sadie has bronchitis, an ear infection and pink eye! I told Adam DCF will probably be knocking at our door soon! Dr. Rosi said Sadie couldn't go to school the rest of today or tomorrow. I had to leave work early because Adam couldn't get off of work. Luckily I'm already off tomorrow. Sadie is now on amoxicillin (for her ears), py...something (for her eyes) and she has to take albuterol through a nebulizer every 4 hours (for her lungs). I feel so terrible for her. Also, Dr. Rosi said we can giver her half a cap of miralax for constipation, since prunes don't seem to work. She will go back in a week for a recheck. Adam says she weighs 13.75 pounds, almost 14!!! At first she didn't mind the nebulizer treatments, now when she has to do it, she screams. The good thing about that is that she's inhaling lots of good medicine! Tomorrow I'm off so I'll be able to be with her. Other than that craziness, everything with us is good. Adam has a cold again. I feel bad for him too. He needs to rest but he is only 1 of 2 key holders. He has to be at work.Tomorrow Adam's brother Ross and his girlfriend Carolina are supposed to come over for dinner. I hope Sadie will get lots of good rest and be ready for a couple of visitors! Well, Sadie is all bundled and sleeping in her nice warm, cozy crib so I'm going to go relax! Loves.

Today's Kabbalah:

When something triggers a reaction within you, it's almost impossible not to react. Simply telling you not to react is not always enough motivation. But thinking about cause and effect usually does the trick.Today, when you are about to indulge in some reactive behavior, think about how you will feel five minutes, five days, or five months down the road. Learn to see the future in the present moment, and you will have the impetus you need to change your behavior here and now.

Friday and Saturday

Oh, St. Valentine...

Well, I actually have fun stuff to blog about! Friday night we went to see Less than Jake at the Venue with Kristin and Benny. We all had so much fun. There were 2 other bands before LTJ. I can't remember their names. The first one was really good, the 2nd was okay, all their songs sounded similar. LTJ was awesome...as usual. I bounced and sang and had a great time. We didn't get home until after 1 am. Sadie stayed at my Mom's house Friday night. My mom said she was fine, up a few times at night. Yesterday we went out to Williston ad picked Sadie up, then we ran errands and watched movies. It was good, for a rainy day. Today we cleaned house and just hung out. We had lunch with Adam's mom and brother Henry at Perkins. After that we went to Macy's. They were having big sales at the mall and there were some outfits for Sadie I wanted (since they were on sale!). I got her some really cute stuff. Sadie was really sleepy, so we went home after that. She was up several times last night. She was coughing a lot too. We thought maybe her gums were bothering her so we gave her a half dose of Tylenol but she still woke up a few times after that. I was wracking my brain trying to figure out what she needed. She wasn't wet, hungry and her gums weren't bothering her. She didn't have a fever so... Today she has been pretty fussy too. Then, it occurred to me that last week I started using regular milk in my cereal again (as opposed to soy). I am now wondering if that may be the problem. I had been thinking she was over that by now, but now I'm not so sure. I got more soy milk at the store tonight. I'll start using that again and see if she seems to feel better in the next few days. I hope so. I feel so bad for her. Adam closes tomorrow night so he is going to call Dr. Rosi tomorrow about her cough, it doesn't seem to be getting any better. Now, she'll be coughing for a while ad then she'll almost gag. She's done it a couple of times now. It tears my heart up. I hope that she gets over her cough soon. Anyhow, it's back to work for both of us tomorrow. Sadie's daycare is closed for president's day, so she will stay at Adam's parents' house in the afternoon until I get off work. Hopefully she'll get better sleep tonight. Sleep well everyone. Loves.


Daily Kabbalah:

Jealousy is a happiness destroyer. Our own. It softens our focus on what we have. And lack of appreciation is synonymous with lack of happiness.Walk into your life today as if it were the first time. Look around yourself. What do you love about what you see?

Baby girl

Ch ch ch changes...

I dyed my hair tonight! It's way more red-ish than what I wanted but, it'll wash out. I like it, something different. Not much to report today. Another day of work for us and school for Sadie. Adam took some cute pics of her this morning. enjoy!


Daily Kabbalah:


Spiritual revelation can come as a flash – it shows itself, you get it, and then it disappears. That’s why it’s so important to act now, not later. Later the clarity or truth might be fuzzy. Today, the moment you glimpse the truth of what you need to do, act on it. Immediately. Don’t wait or it might disappear. If you think to call a friend you haven’t thought about in years, call her. If you want to change something, change NOW. Use the glimpse!


Loves.

One more thing...

I Love my hubby!!!

Just another day

Nothing too exciting to report, just the usual, work and hanging out with miss Sadie. She went to "school" this afternoon. Picked her up and she was all smiles. Adam is at work, I spoke with him earlier and he said that work was good. Valentines is this weekend and it's looking like rain. No canoe trip I suppose. Maybe we'll go to the rock gym. I got the tickets for the Less than Jake show this Friday. I'm excited. I am already worried about Sadie sleeping at my Mom's. I know my mom will take good care of her, but this is the first planned night she'll be away and I am a little sad. It'll be good for Adam and I. I hope that she does okay. Hopefully it'll be harder on me than her!

Daily Kabbalah:

We're all human. We all get to moments where we don't feel like doing or caring. But we have to realize we are at war with our darkness. This can be one of the most dangerous weapons of the other side — to stop pushing.We must constantly grasp for our next level. Even when we're tired, don't have the energy, had a bad day — even then we must find the strength to inject energy and look within. Insecurity, hurt by others, whatever the excuse is to become lazy — if we're not alert to our enemy's moves, he knocks us down.Today, push back against your inner-gravity. Challenge yourself to do more than you usually do. Go the extra-EXTRA mile.

Little nuggets of truth

Not much to report today. We all had a good day (well, Adam is still at work). Sadie was all smiles & giggles when I picked her up from daycare. She ate a whole jar of pears and splashed in her bath tub. She was very ready to go to sleep this evening. Adam and I study Kabbalah, a friend of mine introduced me to it and Adam and I really enjoy the teachings and a lot of the beliefs. We get emails everyday with our daily kabbalah "teachings" which are always really relevant things to think about and apply to your life (which is why we study Kabbalah). I just wanted to share the one I received today. There is no particular reason I am posting this, I just want to share a piece of something that I care about and that Adam and I try to live by.

Monday, February 9

"When things just land in our lap without any effort, chances are it will soon fall out of our lap. Conversely, when we work hard at something and experience obstacles - when there is a process — then know that this is the spiritual process at play and what good comes of it will last.Today, allow space for the process. When you are ready to give up on something because it's not coming right away, resist your desire to throw in the towel. This restriction will let the Light in and actually speed up the process".

Sleep well. Loves

Relaxing Sunday

Sorry to everyone for my slacking on new posts. All three of us have had colds this past week so we've all been resting. Adam and I are both doing much better, Sadie is still snotty and coughing. She;s getting better too though. This weekend went by so fast. Saturday Adam worked, Sadie and I went down to Ocala and saw Mama and Papa (my maternal grandparents). We had a great time visiting. Sadie did really well in her car seat both ways. Today we saw my Dad and Carrie. We had a nice lunch and went hiking (well,walking) through Alfred Ring park. It was such a beautiful day so we decided we really needed to be outdoors. My Dad and Carrie live in the neighborhood adjacent to the park, so we all went together. This evening I've been working on laundry and we've all just been resting up for the week ahead. I'm off again next weekend (lucky me!) so I'll be working Monday to Friday this week. Friday night we are supposed to go see Less than Jake. They are a local ska band that I grew up listening to. My best friend Kristin and I used to go to all their shows, when we were in high school. She called me up this past week and told me that they'd be in town. So, Adam, Kristin her boyfriend Benny and I are going to go. I'm really looking forward to it. Saturday (valentines day) we may go to either the Gainesville rock gym and do some rock climbing or canoe. We're not sure yet. It'll depend on the weather. We decided to not do the whole dinner date thing and do something we would enjoy more!

Sadie is getting cuter by the day. I swear, just when I think I love her more than anything, I wake up and I love her even more! She is such a wonderful blessing in our lives. Hope y'all have a great week. I'll try and post more this week. Loves

Playing Sadie (and her new tub)

Sunday night

So, I apologize for not posting much the past few days. Not too much to report. I am feeling much better. My incisions are healing and I am not hurting as bad. I go back to work tomorrow. It'll be nice to be around people again! I will definitely miss all this great time I've had with Sadie. I have enjoyed every second I've had with her. Adam, Sadie and I are all having some allergy attack or small cold or something. Adam and I both have a sore throat and a little cough. Sadie also acts like she is felling a bit yucky. I'm sure it's related to the crazy weather changes. Also, I have a somewhat lowered immune system right now. We are all doing fine though. Sadie goes back to daycare tomorrow afternoon (Adam closes). I hope that she does okay. She's hasn't been there since the day I went to the ER. Anyhow. This has been a good weekend. Friday night I went to a baby shower for a girl that I work with (Sara). I had a lot of fun and it was neat to see all the cool stuff she got. She doesn't know what she's having so most of the stuff was neutral and that's always great. We tried to stick to neutral stuff for our big stuff (stroller, swing, car seat, pack and play) so if/when we have another child we won't have to worry about if it works for a boy or girl. Saturday we just relaxed and in the evening we took Sadie to her Bubbe's house and Adam and I went on a date! This is the first since my Bday (in July). We went to Harry's for dinner and the melting pot for dessert. I was really nervous about eating out since my body hasn't quite got the hang of me eating yet. I did okay though. I got salmon and steamed veggies so it was fine. We had chocolate fondue for dessert. I didn't eat much of that (a sin, I know). Today we've just been hanging out again. Adam got his hair cut and we went to publix. Well, I'm feeling pretty sleepy so I'll post this slide show and go to sleep! Loves

Cabin fever

Sadie and I have been hanging out in our pj's the last couple of days and I think we are both suffering from a bit of cabin fever. It really is so funny how badly you want to go and do stuff when you know you can't! That's okay though better safe than sorry. I did open the sliding door and windows since it was so nice out today. Sadie spent most of the day being silly and I tried to rest. Adam was home until 1:30 and then he had to go to work so I've been trying to manage Sadie since then. Well, not manage her, she's been her usual wonderful self. It's just difficult for me to lift her and carry her and all that stuff that usually comes easily. Plus I have to move slow when I get up and down otherwise it feels like my incisions are ripping open. I know all that will get better with time, so until then I just have to tell myself to be patient and not in a hurry and that's what's best for me and Sadie right now. My dad and Carrie came by this evening to check on me. Carrie helped me bathe Sadie and we got to visit for a bit. It was really nice. My only other big "issue" I've been having is my getting sick almost every time I eat. That I can really do without. It doesn't seem to matter what I eat (although I haven't gotten sick from plain, dry toast). I am sticking to a bland diet with virtually no fats (which is by my choice, not the doc's). I just keep drinking water and ginger ale and eating toast and crackers and hopefully my body will catch on. The upside...I am losing weight like nobody's business! Yes, I know, it's not healthy. Anyhow. Enough complaining. In a week or two I'll be better than ever and hopefully this will all be a thing of the past. Sadie goes back to Dr. Rosi's office later this week to get reweighed. I am so interested to see what she weighs now. She has only been to daycare 2 times since her last appointment. Well, sleep tight everyone. Loves.

battle wounds...more at the bottom

so here are my battle wounds! lol. excuse my yucky bloated tummy....more blog below!

So...

When I went to meet with the surgeon on Wednesday I didn't think I'd be back so soon! I went to work on Thursday, felt fine. After lunch my tummy kinda started to hurt, it got progressively worse. I went out to do notices and after about 10-12 of them I could barely stand up straight. I went back to the office and ended up going home. I called Adam and told him I needed to go to the ER again, he couldn't leave work right away so I called my mom and she came and got me and took me to North Florida's ER. I was, at this point in such excruciating pain I was dry heaving. When we got to the ER it was taking forever, so my mom called the surgeon on call and explained the situation. He said that it can't wait until Feb 3rd, I need to have my gall bladder out now! So, I got admitted to the hospital and Friday They took my gall bladder out. According to what the surgeon said, I not only had large stones in my gall bladder, it was also quite thick and enlarged. It had actually been totally non-functioning for a while and got thick and large from trying to work. So, it's good that it came out when it did because I could've been much sicker. He also said that other issues I've been having with my tummy should resolve themselves now that my gall bladder is gone. Anyhow, so my gall bladder is gone. I had a rough time with the anesthesia, it really kicked my butt until late yesterday. I, unfortunately vomited and was very disoriented. I mostly just slept. I finally came home on Saturday morning and have been trying to take it easy (I'm so bored). Playing with Sadie as best I can. I have 4 incisions. One right about where my stomach is (that's where they pulled the gall bladder out), 2 under my right rib cage and one on my belly button. The ones under my rib cage hurt the most. especially when I throw up or cough or...well, do anything. Actually it's sorta funny, they had to put a breathing tube down my throat, so my throut is scratchy and it kinda makes you have to cough, but it kills me to cough, gotta love it! It's starting to get better, I can get up and down by myself now.

Adam has been wonderful through all of this(no surprise there). He's been taking good care of me and handling everything. Sadie stayed at Adam's parent's house on Thursday night and my mom watched her Friday night. She is doing well. She definitely missed me. All she wants me to do is cuddle her. I love to but I can't pick her up too much. It still hurts! But, hopefully I'll better than ever in the next week. I would like to be back to work by the end of the week but we'll see. Every time i move to quick or cough or talk too loud it feels like my incisions are ripped open. As I said though...it's getting better with each passing moment. I am so glad they got that darn thing out when they did! Well, I am sleepy and it hurts to sit like this for too long so. Loves y'all

oh! Sadie got pink eye sometime during all of this! Dr. Rosi called her in some eye drops (prescription) so she should be all better soon. Other than that she is perfect

It's inevitable...

I went to the surgeon today. He told me that I definitely need my gall bladder removed. He said if I wait the stones could end up blocking the bile ducts, causing pancreatitis and then I'll have to have emergency surgery (they would have to slice me open instead of laproscopic). So...I opted to have it done as opposed to waiting. I'm having it February 3rd. I'm a little nervous. Mostly about having to go under anesthesia and also being in pain after. I can't really pick Sadie up for about 48 hours after, then I can't lift more than 20lbs for a week. I guess that's that. Sadie and I had a good day today. We played in the morning. She took a really long nap then I took her to Adam's parent's house so his mom could watch her while I was at my appointment. I was all excited because Adam opened today so I made a really nice dinner (curry chicken mixed with spinach, black beans, corn, pilaf and peaches with corn bread muffins on the side). Then, just as we're about to sit down to eat his boss calls and says one of the girls that works with him is "sick" and can't stay till closing. So, Adam had to go back to work after dinner. I feel so bad for him. He had already taken a shower and got into his comfy clothes. He barely had a minute to relax. Tomorrow he work 9am-9pm so everybody send him some good energy vibes! Well, I guess that's all for now. Loves

Uneventful

Not too much to report today, just more cute pics of Sadie. I go to the surgeon tomorrow to talk about my options for the gall stones. I'm kinda nervous. Sadie we to hr Bubbe's house this afternoon. She got to see 2 of her uncles, her auntie Carolina an Grandpa (and of course Bubbe). She was cute and all smiles when I picked her up. I just put her down (she was sleepy). She had a nice warm bath, yummy eats and cuddle time. Hope y'all have a good night. Loves.

Beautiful Baby

So, I'm going to be entering Sadie in the Regis and Kelly "beautiful baby" contest. I have to send a picture. I can't decide between these two. I also have a couple more I like but I think these are the best. Everyone tell me what your vote is! Other than that things are going along as usual. Adam with work and school, me with work. Nothing too terribly exciting. Sadie had her 6 month check up. Dr. Rosi said she looked great. She has lost some weight, a little over half a pound. Something we will need to keep a close eye on. She has become more active, so that could be the culprit but Dr. Rosi just wants to be sure. So, I take her back in 2 weeks for a re-weigh to see where she is at. In the meantime, we have to write down everything and every time she eats. She is doing fantastic though, meeting and exceeding her milestones. I love that monkey.

We have been looking off and on at houses to rent until Adam is done with school. We live in a pretty nice apartment but we'd like more space...and...to be honest, we are really not apartment people. Adam can't stand having people drive through the community like maniacs (people rarely stop at stop signs here) and I can't stand hearing my neighbors. Most of the time it doesn't bother me. Hearing someone above you walking took some getting used to. What really aggravates me is hearing other people's TV and music and conversations outside the door. I guess in the grand scheme of things those things really shouldn't bother me. Unfortunately they do. I have never lived in an apartment with someone over me and walls that you can hear through. Anyhow, we are now at the point where we either need to do it, or stay where we are. Adam will be done with school (theoretically) in 11 months so if we sign a 12 month lease somewhere and he doesn't get a job in G'ville, then we will be stuck for however much time is left on our lease. If we end up here, though then it would be nice to already be in a house. We'll see. It's weird to think we may be living somewhere else in a little over a year from now, possibly. When we were going to move to Chicago it was fun and exciting, but with a little one it really makes it feel fun and scary at the same time. I think it would be good for both of us to experience living somewhere besides Gville well Adam has lived other places...). I hate to think of Sadie as a 3rd generation ACR (no offense mom and dad). Well, enough rambling for tonight I guess. Loves y'all.

Week of baby

gall stones hurt!

Sadie is so cute!

So, since a few days after I had Sadie I have periodically had these really bad stomach pains. When it first started I thought it had something to do with being engorged (my back was also hurting) so I just didn't worry too much. Since then it's happened about every 3 weeks or so. I went and saw a doctor, who told me it was probably gas or heartburn. He rpescribed me medication that I wasn't even supposed to be taking (it is very dangerous for breastfed infants) and I felt a bit aggrevated because no, I am not a doctor but I do know the difference between gas, heartburn and what I've been experiencing. So, I just kind of have ben trying to manage it the best I can. Well, Friday night it was the worst it's ever been. By the time Adam got home from work at 11:30 pm I was balled up on the couch and could barely move without it hurting. He finally convinced me to go to the emergency room. At the ER they drew my blood, took my vitals and did an ultrasound on my belly. Eventually the doctor came back and told me I have several large gall stones and biliary colic. He told me that sometimes a shift in hormones (like from pregnancy and childbirth) can cause your body to start making the stones. Once it starts it will keep making them. He told me I would have to have my gall bladder removed. So, I have been referred to a surgeon (Jan 21) and will see what they have to say. I would like to see if there is any other option besides surgery, however, everything I've read so far says it's better to just go ahead with the surgery. It is laproscopic, so they don't have to "open " me up. Plus, the recovery time will be MUCH faster.

Other than that things are going really well for all of us. Adam is working hard and doing well in school, as always. I'm working, Sadie is growing and doing well. She has her 6 month check up on Thursday. She has had a bit of diarrhea that past day and a half. I think it may be related to one of the new solids she has been introduced to. I have been off today and have only nursed her. No solids, to see if that will help any. I hope that everyone is well. Peace.

pretty

Christmas

Well, Christmas is over! Hard to believe that this year will be over in a few days. We had a good Christmas, busy, but good. Christmas eve Adam had to work, so Sadie and I went to my Dad's and saw that side of my family. I finally got to see Mowgli (Julia's baby) he is so cute and getting big. Sadie got some really neat presents. Christmas morning Adam, Sadie and I went to San Felasco and hiked a 5 mile trail. It was great. I wish that it would've been a bit cooler, but it is Florida. Sadie fell asleep in the hiker backpack while we were walking and got a red mark on her head. I felt so bad but she seems like it didn't bother her too much. Later in the afternoon we went to Mama and Papa's house and saw everyone over there. I ate some yummy food and enjoyed visiting with family. Sadie took a long nap while we were there. After that we went to my Mom and Tommy's house and had our Christmas with them. I ate some more yummy food and Sadie got some fun stuff from her Gigi and Granddaddy! Sadie was a very sleepy little girl by the time we got home. Yesterday I went back to work and Sadie went to Adam's parent's house (daycare was closed) When I went to pick her up she felt really warm. I took her temp when we got home and she had a fever. I feel so terrible for her. I want her to get over her cold already! Today she seemed better. She played a bit more and ate better. My mom watched her this afternoon while Adam and I were at work and she seemed fine when I got home. Now, she is sleeping so sweetly in her crib! Well, we stay at Adam's parents house this week while they are on vacation (on a cruise). Henry is not going on the cruise so we will be keeping him company (he doesn't have his driver's licence yet) and watching the Shugan's dog zena and Adam's brother Elliot's dog Wesley. Should be fun. Anyhow...I need to finish cleaning the house. I have work tomorrow and will have to pack up some stuff in the morning. Hope everyone had a magical Christmas. Loves. Peace.

Enjoy the 2 new slideshows!

Christmas eve and Christmas Morning

Christmas evening

Been a while

So, I realize it's been a while since I've posted. In my defense, Adam, Sadie and I have all been sick this past week so...Anyhow, I have posted 2 slide shows that are from this past week. The one just below is from Hanukkah (as if the the Happy Hanukkah frame around it didn't give it away!). Under that is a slide show of pics from Sadie being cute this week. Also, We went to my Dad's house on Sunday and exchanged gifts. He and Carrie gave her the exersaucer that she is in. She seems to be mesmerized by it. She is still a bit small for it but better too small than too big. She'll just grow into it. Tomorrow is already Christmas eve! Sadie and I will be going to my Dad and Carrie's house to see everyone we won't be doing dinner this year (too many people) but it'll be nice to have dessert and read "The night before Christmas" and see all the kids. I will (hopefully) post pics tomorrow night when I get home. Adam has to work so he won't be going with us tomorrow night (tear). Christmas day we will see my mom and that side of my family. I am looking forward to seeing everyone. I am especially excited to see my cousin DK. He started college this year and I haven't seen him since last Christmas! Well, Adam should be home any minute so I will post soon! Hope everyone has a great Christmas (and rest of Hanukkah!). Peace. Loves

Happy Hanukkah