Tuesday afternoon

Sadie is napping right now and I am, well was, picking up the house, doing laundry and updating my blog. Adam is at work, he should be home in about an hour. So far a slow day. The last week or so Sadie has been getting up at 6:30 to eat. I think that's a good sign, she has been eating much more than she was before the surgery. I don't know if it's because she is more comfortable or because she is just at a growth spurt. Whatever the reason, I am happy that she is eating good and growing bi! Today Sadie has bee having tummy time and practicing holding her head up. She is getting to be such a strong girl. She has a follow up with her new pediatrician next Tuesday. I am anxious to see how much she weighs now and how long she is!

I have been changing Sadie's room a bit to be a bit more fun (and pink!). I got these cool daisy lights from Ikea. I still have some more stuff to do,not a lot, but I'm trying to do it piece by piece so I can get cute, fun stuff.

Adm and I are both doing well. Adam found out he won't be done with school in February like we expected him to be, so that changes things a bit. Lately I have been thinking a lot about our path and what we are supposed to be doing. We keep pushing so hard for what we "want" (Adam to have a better ob while we're in school, to be able to be saving to buy a house...) and we aren't getting anywhere. We talked about it and we're just going to wait and see where we're supposed to go and what we're supposed to do and hope that we're going to end up in a good place in the end. My dad says that everyone has to "work hard and pay their dues" and I know that's true, but sometimes it just feels like things will never fall into place. We try to remind each other how much we have to be thankful for and that we just need to remember all we have and that things will happen the way they are supposed to and we should be open and willing to learn the lessons we are being taught right now. Anyhow...Sadie is up, so I'm going to go play! Loves.

Friday night

Friday night was a new and fun experience for Sadie. We decided since it was so nice and cool out, we would go to the friday night free downtown concert. There was a southern rock/folksy type band playing. They were pretty good. Sadie enjoyed laying on the blankie, kicker her legs and listening to the music. She was giggling so much! We met a nice couple from North Dakota with an 18 month old named Camille. Camille was so interested in Sadie and really wanted to get close to her. She was so cute toddling around and clapping to the music. I look forward to seeing Sadie do all that cute stuff. I can't believe that October is almost here. Sometimes it seems like time goes by so slow, then I look back and it seems to go fast. This evening Sadie and I went to Joanne fabric and craft store to pick up some stuff to make cute art for her room. After she went to bed this evening I worked on it...it didn't turn out as cute as I had hoped. It kinds looks like it was made by a first grader! Back to the drawing board I guess. I gave been "re-doing" Sadie's room in colors and accents that I think fit her personality better. She had this purple and yellow pottery barn sunflower bedding but I just didn't feel like it fit her personality (kinda like the first name we chose for her!). So, I have been changing some stuff and it is starting to look really cute. Anyhow, Sadie is sleeping good right now and Adam will (hopefully) be home soon so I hope everyone sleeps well. Loves...

Adam's Bday

Yesterday was Adam's birthday, he had to work, but later we went to his parents' house and had a bbq to celebrate. Yesterday was also Adam's youngest brother Henry's birthday also, so there was lots to celebrate. It was really nice to visit and have cake with everyone. Sadie had a good time being passed around. We have a nice big hunk of leftover chocolate cake now!! Adam got lots of gifts and said he had a great time.

Sadie didn't get a good nap yesterday so she was a little fussy, but that's okay, I get fussy when I'm tired too! She took a shot nap during the bbq and went to bed a bit later than usual. Car rides have been better. Bubbe got us a mirror that has pictures and lights and music on it and Sadie really seems to enjoy it. I turn it on when we're in the car and she kicks her legs and giggles. Hopefully it will help so we can finally travel without having her scream the whole time!

Today I traveled to Orlando for a work event, it was fun. We bowled and sat through an awards ceremony. didn't bowl very well, but who cares! Anyhow. I'm off again tomorrow so I get to be with my monkey all day! Gigi will be coming over later tomorrow, so that will be nice to visit. Loves...

Uncle Dave

Ups and downs

Today Sadie got to meet her Uncle Dave (adam's good friend). He was driving from North Carolina, down to Fort Myers for a wedding this weekend and he is staying with us tomight. Dave and Adam met when Adam was going to school in Orlando at UCF. They (along with Dave's girlfriend at the time and another couple) lived together. Dave came down here last year about the same time for Adam's birthday (about the same time I got pregnant!) so I think it was neat for him to see Sadie. We went out for a nice dinner at Nappy's and Adam and Dave went out to Stubbie's for beers.
Last night was a rough night. Sadie was up quite a bit. She would wake up screaming, I would go into her room, pick her up and she would quickly fall back asleep. I tried feeding her a couple of times but she'd just go back to sleep. She did this about 6 or 7 times last night. I really hope that she is okay. I can't see anything wrong with her. She doesn't have a fever, her incisions look fine...I dunno what else to do. I did give her tylonol the second time she got up last night, but that didn't seem to make any difference. Today has been okay, Sadie has been pretty fussy. We had to run some errands and I really hated taking her out, I'm sure that it doesn't feel good for her to sit in that position. Plus, it's so hot outside. Anyhow, I am hoping that Sadie will have a better night tonight. As for me, I'm going to bed early...let's just hope the guys will be quiet when they get home! loves...

Surgery day!

Resting with daddy!

Well, the surgery is all done. We went in yesterday at 7 am to pre-op. They took her back and did all the pre-op stuff. They evaluated her and asked us a bunch of questions. Luckily they didn't start her I.V. in front of us, they did it after they took her back. They stuck her 3 times in one hand and 2 in the other and ended up blowing a vein, finally they got the I.V. started in her foot. I wouldn't have been able to handle that! After they took her back to surgery we went downstairs to the waiting area, got some coffee and hung out, my mom and dad both came to keep us company in the waiting area. We were only down there about an hour and they called our name. I was really nervous because it was so fast and they said Dr. Bierele was on the phone and I was a little worried that something was wrong. Luckily everything was great and she sailed thorough the surgery and was on her way to the recovery area. We went back upstairs and she was still sleeping (the anesthesia hadn't worn off yet) so we waited until she woke up. She finally woke up, sort of, and I tried to feed her, but she was too groggy to latch on well and fell back asleep. We had to wait 2 hours in recovery so they could monitor her and also for a bed up in the pediatric unit. During our wait Sadie would wake up and cry, we held her then she would go back to sleep. At one point she was extremely unhappy, so they gave her some tylenol and she seemed to feel better after that. We got up to the peds floor about 11:30 am and started out with a room all to ourselves. Sadie mostly slept and we just hung out and visited with family and watched t.v. Later in the evening Sadie got a roommate. A 7 week old baby that had come in to the E.R. with a fever and they couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. They had done all kinds of blood work and a spinal tap. The mother of the baby also has a 21 month old and her husband is overseas, fighting in Iraq. I felt really bad for her and it just reminded me how lucky Adam and I are. Over night was not very restful. Sadie slept most of the night, she woke up about 4 am to eat. The baby next door was crying most of the night and there were nurses in a and out for that baby and to check on Sadie, plus the phlebotomist came up to draw blood from our room mate and she couldn't get a good stick on that baby. I wanted to cry for that baby and mom. About 6:45 ish am the surgeon and residents came up to do rounds and said Sadie looked great (she was all smiles and sunshine at this point) and we could be discharged! we got home about 9 am! I can tell a difference in Sadie already, she doesn't seem to be in so much pain after she eats and she hardly fusses when she has gas (so far), so hopefully it's a good indication of things to come. Adam has to work tonight 4-close and I'll go back to work tomorrow. So, thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers please send some out for baby Taylor (our room mate) that she will have a quick recovery and that her daddy comes home safely. Loves to everyone.

New normal

Yesterday was my first day back to work. It was nice to be back with the girls. I cried a little in the morning when Irene came to get Sadie, but I just kept trying to remember how lucky we are to have her watching Sadie so Sadie doesn't have to go to daycare. Then I felt better. Today Adam works 6-close, so h was home with Sadie for most of the day. Irene came over at 5and watched her until I got home. We played for a bit, I read her a story, gave her a massage and nursed her.Now she's sleeping! Working definitely makes me appreciate my time with my family even more. I feel like this is the beginning of our new "normal", getting on a new routine now that Sadie is here and I'm back to work. It definitely is taking some getting used to. I'll be working again tomorrow and Adam will be home until 3:30 then he goes to work. It is getting close to halloween and we, at work, have started discussing our annual community halloween party. I am really excited, we are going to do a scary party this year. It should be fun! Anyhow, I am going to go check on Sadie. I love to just look at her. I love her so much. Loves ya'll

Good day. Bad day

Well, the last couple of days have gone by so fast, it seems like from the time we get up to the time I lay down we're busy! Lets' see...I ended up buying a jogger from someone off of craig's list. They were asking $40 for it, so I emailed her and she emailed back quickly and said if we pick it up that day she'd sell it for $20!! I was a bit apprehensive, I mean $20, how bad is it? Turns out it isn't that bad. It had been sitting in their carport for quite a while so we had to take it to Adam's parents' house and spray it down with the hose and scrub it with laundry detergent (it smells better!). It works surprisingly well! We took it out for the first time today and it rode nicely on the rocky pavement and grass and Sadie seemed to like it. I am going to make a cover for the padding that I can take off and wash. Today Sadie had an appointment with her pediatrician. She got 3 shots and it was awful, she wailed and wailed and later, after she had finally fallen asleep she kept startling herself awake and then start to cry again. Sadie is now 9lbs 9oz! 22 1/2 inches long. She is in the 33 percentile for her head size, 38 percentile for her height and 19 percentile for her weight, so she's a little girl, but the doc said she is growing fine. We also found out today that Sadie has a heart murmur. These aren't uncommon in babies and it's not necessarily something we really need to worry about just yet, however, it may be a bit of a concern when the surgery comes due to the fact that she will be placed under general anesthesia. I spoke with the surgeon's nurse and she said Dr. Beierle said that she should be fine but she'll have a cardiologist check Sadie before her surgery. Sadie breaks my heart when she cries out in pain. I just want to take it away for her. I hope that the recovery time for her surgery won't be too bad or painful for her. Only time will tell. I'm starting back to work tomorrow, it is bittersweet. I am happy to be going back to a great job with great people (mostly-lol) and it's always good to be making money! However, I am feeling some separation anxiety and am going to miss all her little cute daily "Sadie-isms" that she does. I hope she won't forget her momma! Loves ya'll!

Time to see the surgeon

Today we met with the pediatric surgeon, Dr. Beierle, she was very good and sweet with Sadie and seemed to immediately agree that these were hernias. The surgery is scheduled for Monday September 15th. We will go to Shands at 7am and she will be put under general anesthesia shortly after. It should be a fairly quick surgery,1-2 hours and she will stay in the peds wing overnight. I am glad that we will be able to have this fixed for her. Hopefully it will make her feel better. After meeting with the surgeon we went upstairs to the urology clinic and saw my mom (Gigi) and some of her co-workers. Everyone thought our Sadie was adorable and especially loved her hair! Late we went to Bubbe's house and saw the new stroller Bubbe bought to push Sadie around in, when she's over there everyday. It was very similar to our but it had a couple of really neat features that ours doesn't have. I told Adam I was jealous! Sadie is asleep now and she looks so peaceful, I hope she gets a good nights rest. Tomorrow, if she feels good, we'll play with her new swing. We picked it up today and she only got to check it out for a short bit. She seems to like the lights and hanging toys! More fun tomorrow. Loves ya'll

Waiting...

So we will finally be seeing the pediatric surgeon tomorrow at 1 pm! Sadie has been fussing so much the past few days. I was thinking it's because of the hernias but I don't know...I hope so. I guess we'll find out once they get fixed. Sometimes it makes me feel like I'm not a very good mother. My child is so upset, to the point where she is doing that sad quiet, red faced crying and I can't always make her feel better. To make matters worse, now she has tears (babies don't get actual tears until about 2 months old) so it makes me want to cry too! Sometimes the bouncy seat helps (thank goodness for fisher price!) she gets distracted by the vibrations, fish and sounds but there are times when she is inconsolable. I just hold her and sing to her and rub her head. It really doesn't bother me in the sense that the crying is irritating, I just can't stand to see my child in that much pain, or uncomfortableness or whatever she is feeling. I plan to talk to the surgeon about that tomorrow maybe she can provide some answers. On the positive side we are so blessed to have such a great family (and so close) and each other and this wonderful, beautiful, daughter that has brightened our lives. Also, we are selling out Graco Winnie the Pooh swing, Sadie gets bored in it and needs more stimulation. I am getting (tomorrow morning) a "deluxe travel swing" from fisher price that is similar to her bouncer. It has lights and music and is interactive and she can kick and pull stuff and make the lights come on and stuff. I think she'll like that (I hope). I found it on Craig's list for a great price and the woman had only bought it for her daughter to put her stuffed animals in it (expensive swing for toys!) so it's basically never been used! I'll put pics up tomorrow! Until then...loves ya'll!